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I'M NOT ALLOWED TO CRY, SO I TURN TO STONE

I cannot cry the way I want to
I detach myself from what I'm feeling
I study it so that I can keep from feeling my feelings
I keep my anger and sadness inside
where it is choking me

There's no place to go where you can feel safe enough
to grieve out loud
I go to work and pretend I'm okay when I'm not

My husband tells me not to cry
I have to feel guilty for being selfish, if I cry
So I choose to make myself a stone that cannot feel
I'm angry at myself when I make this choice

Stones can crack when hit
(with feelings not allowed)
Can crumble
Not crying

Acrylic & Mixed Media
© 1989, Betsy Noorzay


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