Breast Cancer Answers Art Gallery

THREE REFLECTIONS

May

I look in the mirror. Who am I now?
In the reflection I see
a curly headed blond.
Out into the world I go
feeling the wig
around my head
wondering who notices;
feigning confidence,
trying to forget.
I look in the mirror. Who am I now?
In the reflection I see
a thin-haired old woman.
Into my world of pain I hide
aware of the hair loss,
telling others it's like
a baby's fine hair;
trying to deny the real thoughts,
the old woman thoughts.
I look in the mirror. Who am I now?
In the reflection I see
a cover-up.
Feeling my head getting cold
in the comfort of my home
I add a scarf
which offers warmth,
which hides reality.
A scarf. And yet,
another symbol.

From Journey Unknown (Journey Press, 1994)
© 1994, Margaret Phalor Barnhart


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