I'M NOT ALLOWED TO CRY, SO I TURN TO STONE

I cannot cry the way I want to I detach myself from what I'm feeling I study it so that I can keep from feeling my feelings I keep my anger and sadness inside where it is choking me There's no place to go where you can feel safe enough to grieve out loud I go to work and pretend I'm okay when I'm not My husband tells me not to cry I have to feel guilty for being selfish, if I cry So I choose to make myself a stone that cannot feel I'm angry at myself when I make this choice Stones can crack when hit (with feelings not allowed) Can crumble Not crying

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